Patience

by SouldiergirlJune 18, 2015

I have been through unsightly storms and flung by your wild sea
I longed to, just for a time…
Remain dry
But this, my friends, is an uncontrollable life
The water is not ready …to stop rushing
So I say, “I am done running!”
I cannot place my palm to the wind

…redirecting it

Nor my body to the ocean

And pretend…not to be absorbed by it

You hold my feet down so I may withstand it!

You flood my graffiti heart

so I may be born again

A reformed spirit

Your blood makes me permanent!

If I yell at the rain and with a heated temper question it
My tree will only wither …in stubborn ignorance

Choosing love instead,

I bathe in your rawness!

I bury my will into the unknown

Graciously taming my patience.

Bird of Prey

by SouldiergirlApril 4, 2015

I’m the elusive creature

Now you see me

Now you don’t

You thought you caught me

But your net remains empty

I’ve learned this lesson before

Prisoner of war

The cult following

Will meet and fall in love

Then turn into acts disappearing

My saliva scatters from your ego

Search and search

But you’ll never track me again

Go figure

11~21~14

Undercover

by SouldiergirlApril 1, 2015

You squirm undercover

Promising both sides it’s for the grander picture

But what say you as a justification

For all the hearts you break along the way

Cruelest jest – you prey on spirits like a game

And the greater scheme?

Cannot be completed through demise and destruction

On this side we build with wholeness and love

So you should just go

Your tricks are exposed

Your covers been blown

Your bidding for a brighter future will lose its tact and pull

As karma spreads like wildfire and you reap what you’ve sewn

The Blade of Lonely

by SouldiergirlMarch 18, 2015

Closeness, like a needle on a string

When will it mend

When will it maim

Ripping hard into temptation

The lure of loves injection

The camoflaughed virus within the vaccine

Infected veins now running weak

The wandering soul

The hawk eyes of the bird

To entrap her life

The craving for company

Creates a naive ignorance

So I coat myself with armor

A preference of protection over comfort

I walk with my claws out

A warrior who has learned

It’s best not to hold the earnest hand

God and I may be head to head

I’m a stubborn daughter

With defenses up

But as my life completes its cycle

He’s the only one who’s never left

These bones of alone

Are loaded with fire, not fragility

Forgive me Father

But I’ll swing like a bat

And I won’t miss

The one who dare come near me

Adorned with the foul fragrance

Of false promises

Undressed

by SouldiergirlFebruary 23, 2015

We are undressed
As they all rush by
They do not see us
With their distracted eyes
Busy chasing a time that flies
But we stand at attention
You and I
A broken resurrection
Mind and bodies offered up for persecution
Me and you
Arrive in fragments
Jilted from all we’ve been through
Are you real?
Perhaps I’m hallucinating
To be soul to soul…
You and me
Complexions of obscurity
Yet I feel your presence
Undressed upon a swarming street
You
are the only one I see

Bonds and Barricades

by SouldiergirlFebruary 21, 2015

Bonds and Barricades
Formatted between us
As we swing inside our separate cages
Battling the internal wars that wage
Splicing the dice that has been thrown
For once in our favor
Yet we dissect it at every angle
Our first instinct of behavior
For so long we’ve lived as solo survivors
Then one day
We happened upon each other
I stumbled into your homegrown auxiliary shelter
Buried in the whiteness of winter
Stuck like snow
Addicted to your bones
Fickle fears feed our minds
So engaged, yet wounded from a past life
Of feeling estranged
Loners in a land of evidence
Losing the facts within our own hands
Accustomed to the give and sway
Attached to being left in the fray
I’m longing to dive from my cage
I’m longing to come with you and stay
If our scar tissue is all that remains
Let us blend this resistance
Before we kiss the grave

Sacred

by SouldiergirlFebruary 19, 2015

Beyond the ruins
Of my exasperated soul
I curl into a tiny ball
A camouflaged creature
Just another broken piece
Through the haze
Of our galaxies and Milkyway
You’ve cradled my face
You reappear
Unafraid of loving
A tattered girl
I’m trembling for your closeness
You curl into my brokenness
Your words twinkle my bleakness
I know you say
You’re no angel
Yet your spirit is saving me
For a future
That is, to be continued…

Blackbird

by SouldiergirlFebruary 17, 2015

Blackbird
Your sweet soul
Is seeping through
Filling my pale skin
With broken dreams
Incapable of a remedy
Yet my soft hands run wild
With your untamed melody
To bring you a new beauty
Blowing abrasions to the wind
Settling your scars
With my pure kiss
Blackbird
You may fearfully fly
Away
Yet I will be here waiting
With loves compassion
Throughout the night
And all my days