Feathers from Fear

  

You take me…                                       to new heights

You raise me…                                    to tree tops                                 Gazing at … moon drops 
Naming the stars for me 
Calling me…serenity
But soon… do I realize
This necklace is a collar
This collar is your fingers 
Muzzling me to death
Stifling every breath 
I shared my heart with you!
I unlocked my voice                        …and all I went through
Yet you behave just like the rest…
Holding me out from safety 
Teasing to drop me
Freely…into nothing 
Then- pulling me in and asking…
“How are you feeling?”
I shudder to a revealed illusion 
You should wear your                     God granted honor,                          like you wear a suit and tie
….Ironed and tight-                        with head held high 
Do not speak the word “love”
As you simultaneously squish           …my being like a bug
A pest under your foot
You think I will go along with that?
I will rise up!
And have my own back
I fly down this tree
Like a swift kitty cat
Keep your plastic alibis 
Keep my tears that lived in me       and…died in your hands
Keep it all!
I am gone 
Faster…                                                      than you can stand.
  

Weeping Willow 

  

I thought I was the only one

The only one in your mind
The only one in your hands
The only one you cry for
The one who understands 
My soul sinks into the underworld
Smudged in its own meekness 
I cannot outshine her darkness 
My heart slips into your envelopes
I do not want to share you anymore 
You think of her 
You cry for her 
You play her violin
I draw my bow
With broken fingertips 
discovering your tears 
On another’s skin 

  
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