Biting Down 

 I’m finding it hard to concentrate 

Thoughts speaking without raising their hands
Raising their voices 
Without being called on
Problems scribbled on the blackboard of my heart 
Lacking a solution for their missing parts
Attempts to steady my shaking hands 
Replacing God where there was once man
I try to sit alone and quiet down
A smile traced on my face 
…They all think she is ok
What if life behaved in an opposite way?
Where we just spoke the truth 
Of how we really were on any given day 
I would say, 
…I am biting down with weak teeth 
I am spitting out these words just to stop the nervous tweaks 
I am holding it all in 
I am under the water, freezing my breath
…becoming the hustler of life’s test
Shadowboxing the unrest 
The hive is loose 
And it is I they seem to choose 
Their stings prick and bleed 
But I bat them off 
With unwavering belief 
I’m fighting being defined a failure 
With scarred fists and a worn out tee shirt 
With the cliche missing 
And my poetry clinging 
Ink down my chest 
Bleeding from my heart 
Rendered into art
To heal myself 
I am tired and I am run down 
Yet there is magic in the forlorn 
I am telling you my real 
I am choking on how it feels
I am the result of what has spilled
…like oil out of a bottle 
I wear the stains of past tomorrow’s 
Yet I still live with two hands up on this roller coaster 
And that would be my truest answer 
If we lived in a world 
Where when we reply with how we are 
” yeah I’m ok”
…was not the standard

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The Voice in my Box

  

For many years 

debilitating thoughts 

made a home in my mind

No room at the inn, door locked 

…confined 

I smiled in silence 

To an oblivious room 

All the while

My throat screaming 

For all the bad memories 

All the unfair nights

All the damn hurt!

the effects 

…and the cause 

Life played out and my lips 

….Obediently paused 

Until 

The drink of belief 

Made her way 

From my mouth to my feet 

Like a waking alien 

I have found my home again 

And all that was shrunken inside 

Lost the urgency to cling and hide 

Rising in hope

Yes this freedom speaks

Oh honey…

This freedom sings!

She flys on flames atop of wings

And the music is sweeter than ever 

My voice, my speakers

Reign out 

Bleeding a glorious color

Onto white corners 

of my 

…Newly born feathers. 

  

 

 




Observer 

  

She breaks down 

He arrives in an instant 

…to her flood of wrenching pain

He knows 

He holds her

His love is ever so gentle

…She is his treasure  

He is the calm in her storm 

He would never leave her 

Even when she pushed and clawed 

He…stayed…right…there

My heart in my throat 

As I sat kitty corner in my chair 

Observing love conquer 

She had crowned his heart 

And I found myself silently weeping 

To be one to witness 

…a tender and true love as this 

And as my tears talked a little louder 

They did not even notice

For they were long sunk 

Into the arms 

…of each other 

  

  

Struck 

  

I look as I walk by 

You smile back

Walking ahead 

As our souls scream out 

Frantically reaching hands 

The same eternal longing 

Throughout 

…five thousand lifetimes 

Pulling at us 

To please

…give in 

How deep is this ocean of feeling 

we have set our hearts in 

Yet here we are 

…Pacing the shore again 

Pretending with nods and smiles 

While inside 

The thunderstorm of connection 

has knocked all the power out 

Maybe no one would notice 

…if I reach for you in the dark 

  

 Slivers

I love you and I don’t know why

With all this grief

My heart keeps tight

…a sliver of light

And I think…

If I keep this slender sliver on repeat

…I will be alright


I love you and I don’t know why

I remember when you first

walked down the street

into my soul

I remember it all

The warm sliver of a ray of hope


I love you and I don’t know why

…all you needed was a sliver to get inside

To be, to watch, to pray 

I think if I keep this slender sliver on replay

maybe, just maybe

…I will be ok

 


*thank you for helping me through this hard time- love you all* 

Our Place 

  

 Running through the tall weeds

Of all we have been through

How it has grown taller than us

Hand in hand, we escape 

To remember when

Time was not an enemy 

…but a friend 

Like you 

Like me

Come lay under the stars 

Baring all of our scars 

To the eyes we trust 

We are safe here 

In our land 

…of magic and love 

  

 

Neverland 

  
The cool nights spreading our 

Multicolored feelings 

…in a spider web of directions 

And I sense your minds packed up and ready to go 

Come here baby

For we still have space to grow

And don’t you know, that life 

…is like a treasure chest

To find that gold you gotta dig 

…through the mess 


The day is dragging 

Alarm clocks on an antique 

…pocket watch 

Yet all is not lost!

There is a trapped door

Where love 

…marks the spot 

Let us fall inside, 

…if only for a minute 

Two one way trips to Neverland

I shall dance with Wendy

And you fly 

…with Peter Pan! 

  
*hi wp family! This was inspired by the magic of PAN-finally it’s coming out today and you better believe I will be there with my tinker-bells on!! :)) Happy Friday! 

Rise with Life 

  
My heart nervously beating 

As my eyes match the new horizon

He left in a shocking way

With not even a shadow to trace 

The sky opens her eyes to change 

Asking me to do the same 

Oh but I miss the hands to hold! 

And the stories that laugh as they unfold 

I feel misunderstood 

By the king of understanding 

…it is no fun to feel that way

But I rebuke confusion in these coming days 

I will grow with the bougainvillea 

Wrapping their vines tight to feel ya 

Spreading my hands like Eagles

Above his memory adorned with flowers 

The sky says, daughter it is time 

To rise despite…

and

Fall in love 

…with this unhinged life 

  

 

Mariposa

My heart has ruptured all over this page

My eyes are opened to a future
…rearranged
The week after next
I will perform on their stage
To free pent up emotions
To spring a heart from her cage
I dance to a rhythm that continues to change
I bite down on wisdom that precedes me in age 
The hammer was struck with the words you onced waged
And my soul has been tattered with nails from that day
I will remove each splinter and be numb to the pain
I will cleanse the hurt with oils and sage
I will powder my nose and pretty this face
I will be shy, I will be brave
I will release Mariposa
…from the flocks of their gaze.

Just like Us 

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Nestled in your lap

Lying in the coldness

No one else is here

Sounds of midnight twinkle like stars

The ones we cannot see

Hiding beyond a distracted city

Whose jealous buildings compete to meet the sun

And are melted before they ever do

Tonight I am one with you

We need not search for words

Our connection screams to rise

Upon those buildings where the birds nests hide

In the shadowed corners

Just like us

A pair of eternal friends and lovers

Curled into the secret of each other

A small drifting pocket

Against the eyes of the universe

Just me

Just you