Giving healing a Name

My heart is mending today

My eyes, rest behind glasses
…taking their place

My lips swollen from attempting to make sense

of something

…that can never be named

or understood

And that

…is ok

I tugged my heart out and laid it at your feet

…showing you what I need

You shook your head and walked away

God’s whispering to follow this lead

“Please take my stubborn soul and guide me”

…I plead!

Kneeling until I could feel my bones

Carving creations into the pavement

I stood and saw

A butterfly with a halo

…a sign of love from my angel daughter

A dragon with his claws out

…a transferred protection, my brothers mark

An auburn wolf with eyes like mine

…a reflection of my inner courage 

Decorating me like a glittering thesis

The bowtie completing her writing

The endless essay of my life and timing

Words trail me like the train of a wedding dress

Lifting me to redemption from the mess

As the grey erases 

…in the sunshine of significance

I see I am not alone in this!

And you are all standing with me

Smiling

in a circle of opened hands

Releasing

a fluttering wild soul

We are giving healing a name, 

…Freedom

 

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I am your Music Box 

Inspired by Eric and Chrissy, this is a vocal piece. Please click on the link below to hear this piece in my own words ❤️

  
https://audioboom.com/boos/3684252-i-am-your-music-

  
I am your music box…

I am your music box 

And my heart is your ballerina 

Spinning in the direction of your light

Twirling in the presence of your love 

With my arms above my head 

Reaching high for you 

Chin up 

To the sky 

I am your music box 

And you…are the reason why 

My heart is your ballerina 

Dancing to the sunshine of your orchestra 

Do not you know 

I was once in the dark?

But your love has opened 

my soul 

And moved the ballerina 

Inside my heart 

  

Joseph’s Kindred Life

My next addition for the ABC Challenge with Rich. For all so far peek over at wafflemethis :)) 

*My brother was so on my heart for this as soon as I heard I was up with the letter “J”. I lost him last year, at only 38 he left us way too soon.  It was unexpected and devastating. He always made me feel treasured- he was most definitely, the best. I miss you Joe- every single second. *

  
 
Joseph’s journey 

Juggled jaded 

…judgement 

Jailing jittering joy  

Knotting, kicking 

Knees kneeling, 

Keen Kingmakers Kingdom 

Knew…

Loopholes losing 

Like…

Loving laughter lit 

Lowly losing light 

Leaving

…life 

  

Neverland 

  
The cool nights spreading our 

Multicolored feelings 

…in a spider web of directions 

And I sense your minds packed up and ready to go 

Come here baby

For we still have space to grow

And don’t you know, that life 

…is like a treasure chest

To find that gold you gotta dig 

…through the mess 


The day is dragging 

Alarm clocks on an antique 

…pocket watch 

Yet all is not lost!

There is a trapped door

Where love 

…marks the spot 

Let us fall inside, 

…if only for a minute 

Two one way trips to Neverland

I shall dance with Wendy

And you fly 

…with Peter Pan! 

  
*hi wp family! This was inspired by the magic of PAN-finally it’s coming out today and you better believe I will be there with my tinker-bells on!! :)) Happy Friday! 

I celebrate my tears 

  
I celebrate my tears

For the little girl who was put in the corner

With the hypnotic sway of the pointing finger 

“Don’t you dare cry” 

Over and over

…like a lullaby 

I celebrate my tears 

For the years of pushing them down

To a dungeon I forgot about

Because

“Tears are a sign of weakness”

So I smiled harder and forced them into secret 

I celebrate my tears 

Because when my baby died

Everyone was allowed to lose their minds 

Except me 

I was positioned to remain 

“Nice and neat”

And keep tears hidden 

In between the sheets

When he is passed out asleep

In the shower for hours screaming

As long as no one was home 

…to listen 

I celebrate my tears because the

Chains are being broken 

And my tears are the ones seeking their freedom!

They run down my cheeks 

In an overzealous reaction 

They stream out proudly!

My tears are speaking loudly 

In pure love and acceptance 

Not the misnomer of weakness 

I celebrate my tears

In all their beautiful radiance 

because…

My tears, unleash the story 

…of my spirit!

I celebrate my tears  

  

Just like Us 

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Nestled in your lap

Lying in the coldness

No one else is here

Sounds of midnight twinkle like stars

The ones we cannot see

Hiding beyond a distracted city

Whose jealous buildings compete to meet the sun

And are melted before they ever do

Tonight I am one with you

We need not search for words

Our connection screams to rise

Upon those buildings where the birds nests hide

In the shadowed corners

Just like us

A pair of eternal friends and lovers

Curled into the secret of each other

A small drifting pocket

Against the eyes of the universe

Just me

Just you

We got this 

  
I’m tellin my babies 

When they look to me with those curious eyes 

We got this 

No need to worry 

No cause to cry 

Belief brewed from deep inside 

See these mamas eyes?

Full of confidence and a hard earned pride 

Hush my little babies

We got this 

The world is full of scary monsters 

And I know you have seen 

More than I wanted for my son and my daughter 

Now is your season to be showered..

Love and smiles 

Like sun soaked viles 

Filling our home with warmth and radiance 

We got this thing!

My babies 

Now rest your precious little heartbeats 

  
  

Day 2

  
Hello my gorgeous rockstars! Day 2 of 3 days and 3 quotes… Today I am going to pass this challenge on to three other badass bloggers without all the rules, just share some quotes that mean something to you- if you want- no pressure :))

Walkerkaty0                                              Oceanswater                                      gigoid

The quote with Jax Teller below really spoke to me- not sure if it was Kurt or one of the other writers from SOA, but I read it and was like bam! How true it is that when I am broken I do not feel strong- in the midst of hurt I feel sad and weak and tired. Many of my experiences hang like a loose earring to my heart-they are there but too painful to wear completely.  When I do embrace these hurtful memories I can break again-and fast-but it is the comfort of family, friends, strangers-that act as a cushion to my fall.  Their love keeps me strong when I am not. Their love inspires me to continue to believe and not give up.

YOU are a part of that love and cushion, thank you! I know, believe me I do, that life can be super hard. Hard like slamming the pavement and we are down there wondering how on earth we will stand back up-let alone walk again.

When I was little I remember playing with my dolls and dreaming of being a mother one day-oh how simple things seemed.  I never ever imagined I would be wailing over my daughter’s casket, I never imagined I would be rescuing my children from the angry chains of an abusive marriage.  I have no answers, not even the ones I seek-but I do have love, I do still believe I will find my happiness in my heart. I believe, even though my life continues to unravel from how I attempt to plan it, I believe there is light and hope and love in store for me and for all of you too.

And I LOVE YOU ALL! So see, there is some love already in your day today :))

xxxxo -SG

   
 
  

Good Morning Beautifuls!

  
Hi there my wonderfully  beautiful WordPress family. Thank you for being here! 

So Rich from wafflemethis (wafflemeawesomeness 😏) nominated me to do the 3 days 3 quotes… Sorry I am bad at following the rules so I am just gonna say thank you soul brother for including me in this and get to sharing some quotes with you all… I love quotes. 

The theme here is to LOVE yourself! I have been looked down upon for the very things that make me unique and quirky. I let it get to me for a long time- people’s hurtful jabs and eye rolls. But you know what- if you don’t like me then you can go-this is me and I am not striving for perfection in this life- I am striving for happiness- as many moments as I can muster up!

Being someone other than who I truly am does not make me happy. Plus I have more fun when I am my wacky wild self and there are people out there who love me for ME! Yay :))

So please remember YOU are amazing. You are adorned with uniqueness and an individuality that no one can steal away- so don’t hide your true gorgeous radiance- blaze it baby!! 

…and if others are making you feel small because of your awesome individuality, then they can make like a fly and shoo!! 

Come here and be Loved!

Have a great day! Xxxo-SG

   
   
  

Bring Me 

  
Bring me your good vibes 

Bring me your silkiest rope

Let us tie our dreams together 

And fly our kites of hope 

Bring me your pureness 

Bring me your love 

Let us coo songs of kindness 

Like the friendship of a dove 

Bring me your hand

Bring me your touch 

Let us start a poetic parade

Of new found romance 

Bring me your eyes 

Bring me your heart

Let us bathe head to head 

Like a fire resuscitating 

…what has been dead