longing

Struck 

by Souldiergirl

  

I look as I walk by 

You smile back

Walking ahead 

As our souls scream out 

Frantically reaching hands 

The same eternal longing 

Throughout 

…five thousand lifetimes 

Pulling at us 

To please

…give in 

How deep is this ocean of feeling 

we have set our hearts in 

Yet here we are 

…Pacing the shore again 

Pretending with nods and smiles 

While inside 

The thunderstorm of connection 

has knocked all the power out 

Maybe no one would notice 

…if I reach for you in the dark 

  

Loves Lurk 

by Souldiergirl

  

I lurk in the forest of your heart
I touch my toes ever so gently 
Around all the pieces

You fear are 

….broken for eternity

          I am not afraid 

Of the dark and shadowed place

….Of all you have revealed

And still, all your lips hold sealed

I sleep in the depth of your soul

Known to few 

Hidden from all

I kiss its essence and paint               

          My colors 

To blend with your red and grey

I sleep inside

The genius of your mind

The depth it bleeds

          I bleed back 

Caressing and swimming 

Along the shores 

And far below 

This could be limitless

          And I wish not to go 

I gaze through your 

Wondrous eyes 

Straight into 

…what makes you mine

I gaze from so faraway

I gaze through 

my own dark 

…and hidden space 

I gaze upon your hands

That I may one day feel

The growing bond 

          That proves us real 

  

The dark of night 

by Souldiergirl

What can I do…
What can I do in this

 …unnerving stillness

The darkness settles over me

Like a mask I hide my face inside it

To howl and weep! 

And I’m not sure where heaven is

Or if they’ve gotten wind of this

The sensitive prick …of a beautiful flower

The prolonged passing …of another hour 

Daylight comes and stings my eyes

Shinning a proof

…I have made it through 

What else can I do? 

 Craddling each breath 

Until the night I receive my gift 

And wake up with you

  

Bonds and Barricades

by Souldiergirl

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Bonds and Barricades
Formatted between us
As we swing inside our separate cages
Battling the internal wars that wage
Splicing the dice that has been thrown
For once in our favor
Yet we dissect it at every angle
Our first instinct of behavior
For so long we’ve lived as solo survivors
Then one day
We happened upon each other
I stumbled into your homegrown auxiliary shelter
Buried in the whiteness of winter
Stuck like snow
Addicted to your bones
Fickle fears feed our minds
So engaged, yet wounded from a past life
Of feeling estranged
Loners in a land of evidence
Losing the facts within our own hands
Accustomed to the give and sway
Attached to being left in the fray
I’m longing to dive from my cage
I’m longing to come with you and stay
If our scar tissue is all that remains
Let us blend this resistance
Before we kiss the grave

Arrival

by Souldiergirl

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Sadness draws me in
Underneath the zipper of despair
My heart paper thin
After a week of crumbling from within
You sense my darkness
Alerting your attentive soul
You arrive at my doorstep
Guard down, sexy as ever
Your eyes, my treasure
Your heart, I’ve been quenching
The beat beat
Of my breasts
Colliding with your chest
As they fall and sway
There’s not much to say
In words
My lips speak
As they rise from griefs burn
You- my only cure
Black nails pressing hard into your spine
Wrapping my ankles with your silk tie
“My gift” you say as you unwind
Out into where I go in
Fated lovers
Twisted, tangled
Souls pumping as one
Mangled
Our mess of destruction
Our sadness our abduction
All seems to vanish
With your body upon mine
Delicious seduction
My despair is fading
At the knock of my lovers
Destination