The Voice in my Box

by SouldiergirlDecember 20, 2015

For many years

debilitating thoughts

made a home in my mind

No room at the inn, door locked

…confined

I smiled in silence

To an oblivious room

All the while

My throat screaming

For all the bad memories

All the unfair nights

All the damn hurt!

the effects

…and the cause

Life played out and my lips

….Obediently paused

Until

The drink of belief

Made her way

From my mouth to my feet

Like a waking alien

I have found my home again

And all that was shrunken inside

Lost the urgency to cling and hide

Rising in hope

Yes this freedom speaks

Oh honey…

This freedom sings!

She flys on flames atop of wings

And the music is sweeter than ever

My voice, my speakers

Reign out

Bleeding a glorious color

Onto white corners

of my

…Newly born feathers.

Once Upon Our Time

by SouldiergirlDecember 16, 2015December 16, 2015

My life is a story

A peeling layer of liquid poetry

As the breadcrumbs

fall behind me

Each time I grow

Each time you know

There is more of me to follow

I’ll be Gretel

How about it Hansel?

Our words are building a foundation

For the most courageous castle

One who has seen

And felt

Been on her knees

When all she could do

…Was crawl

Now she stands

With you and me

Abducting a long forgotten glee

And it doesn’t make sense

But love seldom does

Once upon our time

Breadcrumbs and fairytale rust

Take my story

Not just to read

…Yours, to be touched.

Her Name…Determination

by SouldiergirlSeptember 28, 2015January 19, 2019

***Thank you Megan

I want to be a flapper

A symbol of celebration

Dancing in the face of discrimination

Whistle and toot my way into freedom

Among the feast of governing isolation

Change my name

Change my destination

Opportunity runs in the opposite way of the oncoming

invasion

set my sights and continue to

raise them

My eyes embrace a culture devoid of opposition

A deflating rigid system

Baptized into the ocean of

born again

Frolicking with you into the sun

Where good times stick like honey

…to a happiness that never ends

Day 2

by SouldiergirlSeptember 17, 2015September 17, 2015

Hello my gorgeous rockstars! Day 2 of 3 days and 3 quotes… Today I am going to pass this challenge on to three other badass bloggers without all the rules, just share some quotes that mean something to you- if you want- no pressure :))

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The quote with Jax Teller below really spoke to me- not sure if it was Kurt or one of the other writers from SOA, but I read it and was like bam! How true it is that when I am broken I do not feel strong- in the midst of hurt I feel sad and weak and tired. Many of my experiences hang like a loose earring to my heart-they are there but too painful to wear completely. When I do embrace these hurtful memories I can break again-and fast-but it is the comfort of family, friends, strangers-that act as a cushion to my fall. Their love keeps me strong when I am not. Their love inspires me to continue to believe and not give up.

YOU are a part of that love and cushion, thank you! I know, believe me I do, that life can be super hard. Hard like slamming the pavement and we are down there wondering how on earth we will stand back up-let alone walk again.

When I was little I remember playing with my dolls and dreaming of being a mother one day-oh how simple things seemed. I never ever imagined I would be wailing over my daughter’s casket, I never imagined I would be rescuing my children from the angry chains of an abusive marriage. I have no answers, not even the ones I seek-but I do have love, I do still believe I will find my happiness in my heart. I believe, even though my life continues to unravel from how I attempt to plan it, I believe there is light and hope and love in store for me and for all of you too.

And I LOVE YOU ALL! So see, there is some love already in your day today :))

xxxxo -SG

We are the Midnight

by SouldiergirlSeptember 13, 2015

We are the midnight

Crouching in hopes cobwebbed corner

Sending kisses on trains to eachother

Spreading dreams like whistles

Calling them stealthily home

We are the unsuspected believers

To boost and carry on for the one …and for all the others

Grown up from sawed off roots

Making yellow from our blues

Lifting soul songs to the night sky

Praying for a star to carry the message

Whilst passing us by

It is our dark and we have blessed it

While the rest sleep

We write faith into their eyes

Yes…

…We are the Midnight…

Bring Me

by SouldiergirlSeptember 9, 2015September 9, 2015

Bring me your good vibes

Bring me your silkiest rope

Let us tie our dreams together

And fly our kites of hope

Bring me your pureness

Bring me your love

Let us coo songs of kindness

Like the friendship of a dove

Bring me your hand

Bring me your touch

Let us start a poetic parade

Of new found romance

Bring me your eyes

Bring me your heart

Let us bathe head to head

Like a fire resuscitating

…what has been dead

Twilight of Intrigue

by SouldiergirlJuly 29, 2015

Do you see

The amigos of three

Brushing upon the twilight of intrigue

The starry night

Gazing in our eyes

Comprised of moments

Later whispered as memories

Carried on the tail end of time

“Remember when it was you and I

In the silence of life”

Love, solace and a hopeful gleam

Brushing upon

The twilight of intrigue

Reality Wednesday

by SouldiergirlJuly 22, 2015

Hello beautiful people! I want to remind you all today, yes each one of you peeps and peepers, gods and goddesses, lovers and likers, every shape, size,sex, color..today I want to tell you…

Yes, you are- in every way!

The battle that has given me the most wounds is the one I have fought with myself. I start to gain momentum in life and confidence then some little bugger comes along and squirts some poison on me-whether it be an insult of words or actions- I let the poison spread and I began to degress in my progress of loving, heck even liking myself. You know what though…

Time to squish those bugs!

When people are mean to you it’s most often because they are mean to themselves and they are projecting their poison onto whomever is in their path at that paticular time. I am working to remember that I am awesome, and if someone wants to make me feel like crap- gotta squash that. Got to keep my head up high on this journey of self love!

That is right! We are shinning stars! I have grown attached to all of you who have come to visit me here- so I can say with confidence that each of you is worthy of self love. You already have my love and admiration. You all are amazing! Smile, you are radiant and you are loved!!