My Scattered Heart 

Do you ever wonder 


About the pieces we give away
Trusting hearts
Vulnerability misplaced
The precious parts
We hand over like
Trading cards
For a temporary love
I think of mine
Inside dresser drawers
and back pockets
Of…wrinkled trousers
Tone deaf caskets
Scattered with my brothers ashes
The crusted corner of
A once unassuming smile
A handshake, a pinkie promise
A hopeful wish
We made together
Only to hear it crumble
My heart is scattered
With a forgotten child
And ancient lovers
Buried in a sandbox on Fredrick street
…that time capsule
Remember?
I feel the pressure
The beating twice as hard
Of the scars 
That once held parts
And maybe I am not whole
But I am a growing seed
Planted throughout the world
And I wasn’t always right
To give it away
But I took the gamble
And there are these sweet moments
Where I won
Like a radiant flower
Linked up with the sun
Is she any less capable
Without each one of her petals? 

Mama Bear

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Mama bear
With eyes of steel
Forged in the dungeon
of self protection
Can no longer lean on the comfort of self mutilation
Or the escape
of sniffing powdered lines of elation
Given three angels to raise with a raw affection
She is the rain for them
May they evolve with sharpened blades of intuition
She is the sun for them
May they feel the light emerge from a darkened past
She arms her heart and home
She raises them alone
A protector from skin to bones
Never having been in love
Until the arrival of her first son
Everything changed
Every sacrifice made
Thickened into a mama bear
Her love that feeds and protects
Is the same love
You should fear

Ding Dong Darling

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I’ve been gone a long time
From your eyes
Your hawked eyed stare
Nibble and prick away
A heart you knelt down and caged
My wretched escape
The burning flames
Of a tortured mind
Hmm..but you paid no mind
As you lit your match
And left me
Unmanned
I’ve been gone so long
Trained up and rising
Now I am back
Darling
The scare jumps onto your face
Ding dong
I’m at your gate
My chained remains
You don’t bother hiding
Come now and say hello
It will only burn
A little