I’ll stay black 

The world of black 

Is all too familiar
Void of life and void of color
I longed to put my brain on autocorrect
So when I thought death
It would translate to love
The pills from all the doctors
My neck cracked in despair
Dripping all my yesterday’s
A constant strangulation of guilts face
They say it’s a process
of trial and error
Plastic bottles
milligrams increased to fire
But now I am a robot
Suited underneath their experiments
Trembling in an aftershock of side effects
My body has not succumb to this
Prick me with a needle
They say it’s progress I can’t feel it!
No…
I don’t think so
You can’t grow happy from capsules
Like the wound is gushing
And instead of digging and fusing
They add bandaid upon bandaid
When I tell them I’m still bleeding…
I find comfort in the sea urchin
Poking to keep me breathing
I’ve been under so long
I navigate the darkness so well
But they hooked me to a fancy gps
Designed to misdirect my hell
You’ve lost your mind,
And we can fix it right up!
No…
I disagree
You see, I didn’t choose this life
This life chose me
And I’d rather conquer my blackness
Then choke on a diluted dream
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Eye Rock You

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My eyes…

Deducing your slouch
Back corner
Cigarette dangling down
Lids drawn like blinds
Table scribbles with tired hands
I sense anxiety choking like a corset
You and I baby
Wear depression like a headdress 
My feathers are humming rhymes for two
Heart beat drums, right on cue 
Seductions soprano
Climbing faster 
Than the timid alto
Hello…
My lips press and smile
I’ll cover the cost of confidence 
For the both of us
I hear your heavy tunes of sadness
But…why can’t we escalate  
The Bach and switch to jazz?
Just one dance…
Hands on my hips
Top floor corner room
Smoking please
No need for introductions 
Sit back and I’ll play you for the evening 
My body will sway with your rhythm and blues 
Moaning and blowing 
Your trumpet til morning 
Your somber stance 
Already livening up
You got number one on the track  
So hit play and let go
My eye rock you melody
And this one, is for you baby