Soul Love 

I was having a hard time a few weeks back- being cut off from some people I really love for no particular reason- I fell into a slump- an unloved sad little slump. Poking around my favorite sites I saw a post by the lovely Carolina at yesterdayafter. If you don’t already know or haven’t seen (please please look) Carolina makes her own incredible jewelry. That night she had posted a Rose Quartz- did you know Rose quartz is termed the “love stone”? It’s also called the bohemian Ruby- hello! How awesome is that?! 

We got to sharing about the healing properties it brings. Carolina is educated in all of this btw- she’s amazing. So she began to make me my own- she spent the week pouring soul love into this ring for me. It was not something cool I picked up at a random shop- this was made from straight soul love to connect us in friendship and healing.

And the day came when it arrived…

   
   
I sat on my bed with the giddiness of a child! I felt her love and now I have something to wear so I never forget.

I have been hurt so much in my life that I became afraid and even suspicios when someone was actually kind to me! I am breaking down those fears and here in this forum I have been so embraced. I have been loved and accepted. I still can’t believe it. We are worthy of this love. We are all worthy of our own love stone- to remind us when we forget. 
**thank you sweet Carolina for your time and encouragement and joy toward me- we share a soul love that, like this stone, will hold strong against the winds of fear and peril. 

Love, real love, is a fierce light to demolish doubts and doom. ~SG

Have a great day my fellow loves! 

   
 

Ink it out! 

  

Art speaks in limitless ways 

The way dancers flock to an open space 
The way brushstrokes externalize a buried rage 
The way a chef sprinkles rosemary and sage 
The way a writer grips to the connection of a page 
Or a stick
Grounded dirt or sand
I once wrote with my fingernail on the shakiness of my panicked palm
Bathroom stalls and park benches 
Sometimes lipstick and a mirror appear heaven gifted 
When my daughter died I scribbled inside my head 
The litter of leftover thoughts
Still murmur like a distant rattling of mamas mixing pots 
Beyond a perfect line, circle or square 
Is my stream of penmanship 
Combating the woo of normalness
I do my best work under the duress of craziness
I wrote on a notepad in a bathtub in a hotel room
They said my brother was dying 
And I didn’t know what the fuck else to do
Punch a nurse or doctor?
The postman of premortem…
My tips ink it out harder 
Sometimes I dance and scream 
Shredding down the walls of my brain
Griefs found me like a ravaging bloodhound
Inside, all is not safe and sound 
But I smile and wave and nod
I am a mother and a lover 
I am a human spirit 
I share grief with the infinity of others
“Let’s talk and sit around in a circle”
but sometimes I spin out!
My Shape… is nameless
A pale face bound by a galaxy of freckles 
The overlapping and intersecting lines
The willpower of a lioness
There are no instructions for madness!
So I use the benefit of pen and paper
To be understood by myself 
and none other.



 

Never let go 



Mile upon mile 
My love piggybacks on a twisting spiral 
An essence through the atmosphere 
Scattering shades from heaven 
Angelic tunes tinted with euphoric blue
Watercoloring your morning horizon
I want you to know where I stand 
No matter the gaps of earthly space 
That climb and stretch in between 
The physical us
May you hear my voice spilling upon you
The truth is I am right there
The flower in your palm
The breeze licking your skin
I have never let go
Since the moment we began 


Undressed

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We are undressed
As they all rush by
They do not see us
With their distracted eyes
Busy chasing a time that flies
But we stand at attention
You and I
A broken resurrection
Mind and bodies offered up for persecution
Me and you
Arrive in fragments
Jilted from all we’ve been through
Are you real?
Perhaps I’m hallucinating
To be soul to soul…
You and me
Complexions of obscurity
Yet I feel your presence
Undressed upon a swarming street
You
are the only one I see

Bonds and Barricades

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Bonds and Barricades
Formatted between us
As we swing inside our separate cages
Battling the internal wars that wage
Splicing the dice that has been thrown
For once in our favor
Yet we dissect it at every angle
Our first instinct of behavior
For so long we’ve lived as solo survivors
Then one day
We happened upon each other
I stumbled into your homegrown auxiliary shelter
Buried in the whiteness of winter
Stuck like snow
Addicted to your bones
Fickle fears feed our minds
So engaged, yet wounded from a past life
Of feeling estranged
Loners in a land of evidence
Losing the facts within our own hands
Accustomed to the give and sway
Attached to being left in the fray
I’m longing to dive from my cage
I’m longing to come with you and stay
If our scar tissue is all that remains
Let us blend this resistance
Before we kiss the grave

To you, dear

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At the mouth of this cage

The liquid fire in my belly has consumed it all
From blistering tears
To sweating rage
These ceaseless loops
have me drained
I’m a canary
A blue bird
My song is expanding
Can you hear me
Vibrating through our air
Flying to you, dear
Break me down
Break me apart
Flush my desires
Unplug my pent up heart
I will land softy in your arms
Breaking safely down
I will sing for you
When day has fallen
And my cage has met your ground

I need you

i need you

I need you

To wash my body with your tears
I need you
To behold my vulnerability
As I deliver it and care for yours
so delicately
I need you to be a true friend
Let’s become a living definition
Of souls bonded in existence
I need you
To take this cigarette
And share it with me
While we stay up all night
With the moon at our feet
I need you
To walk this jagged edge with me
To revel openly
To love me silently
To trust intuitively
That fear is only a mockery
A jest to prevent your bravery
I won’t betray the secrecy
I’m offering my fragility
To a worth I see in your soliloquy
I am what you believe of me
Through shifting times
And changing skies
I offer this truth
I know you need me
Just as
I need you

Thief

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…My thief

I know I deserve you

I fought long and hard

clawed and marred

Through death and a beaten heart

Through malicious lies in front of

Innocent eyes torn apart

I feel you coming

The blood dances

through my veins surging

I feel you close

You submit my intuition

I don’t need you to save me

Just steal my mind

Pump your words powdered with

Poetic ammunition

Revive my inspiration

I don’t need you to say

“baby it’s all gonna be ok”

Just steal me from my bed

Carry me into the rain

Pull me by my braids

To a dark and soaking place

I don’t need you to fix my past

Just steal my future

End your night into my day

Your mouth stealing pleasure

After me like a vulcher

I feel you coming closer

Postured and on the hunt

Ridding my doorway of

The wolf in sheep’s clothing

My relentless thief

A stolen invitation

And I found you in a Trance

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Spectrum
Electric red
Awaken my mind
And hold it
A cradle of musical comfort
It should always be this way
To live inside a symphony
Music is life anyway
And when i saw you there
You kidnapped my eyes
Through the flashes of light
You always did that
And tonight we find the beat
unchanged
I’m still painting my face
The scars your fingers may trace
I came here to escape
Grab be now
Rescue me from this tyranny
I’m begging you
It’ll be better this time
Or I’ll drown into the insanity
Take my hand
Find my lips
In the middle of this hallucinogenic crowd
Let’s try this again