betrayal

Reality Wednesday 

by Souldiergirl

I hate being hurt by others. No matter how many times it happens, it still hits like it were the first…

When I give my all and it is not enough 

When sadness smokes an insult 

I am overlaid in its puff 

When a promise is betrayed 

I know you let my secret run wild 

My soul burns 

In a tear kindled fire 

My reality…

My heart is not taken seriously 

Again pushed into a corner 

Just my Savior and me 

  

Bird of Prey 

by Souldiergirl

  

I’m the elusive creature 

Now you see me
Now you don’t 
You thought you caught me
But your net remains empty
I’ve learned this lesson before
Prisoner of war
The cult following 
Will meet and fall in love 
Then turn into acts disappearing 
My saliva scatters from your ego
Search and search 
But you’ll never track me again
Go figure 


11~21~14 

The Blade of Lonely 

by Souldiergirl





Closeness, like a needle on a string 

When will it mend 
When will it maim 
Ripping hard into temptation 
The lure of loves injection 
The camoflaughed virus within the vaccine 
Infected veins now running weak 
The wandering soul
The hawk eyes of the bird
To entrap her life
The craving for company 
Creates a naive ignorance 
So I coat myself with armor
A preference of protection over comfort 
I walk with my claws out
A warrior who has learned 
It’s best not to hold the earnest hand
God and I may be head to head
I’m a stubborn daughter 
With defenses up
But as my life completes its cycle
He’s the only one who’s never left
These bones of alone 
Are loaded with fire, not fragility
Forgive me Father 
But I’ll swing like a bat
And I won’t miss
The one who dare come near me
Adorned with the foul fragrance
Of false promises 

Slices of a Souldier- the heart

by Souldiergirl

IMG_0032-1

You escort my heart out
From under me
Massaging and loving
Persuading and wooing
Charming and convincing
Subtlety turning
Toward cowardly convictions
Flatlining the beat you set in motion
Placing it on the pavement
While you disappear
Just for a minute…
Dear…
Seasons pass then reappear
My heart long succumbed
To your dead cold air
Another burnt strand of hair
Another scratch against the mirror
Lest you uncover your ear
Detecting my heart alive and vulnerable
These are the wounds
That etch me into a souldier

Spyder

by Souldiergirl

spyder

Lurking in the shadows
Like a creep
Patiently waiting
For me to slip
Dripping venom from your teeth
Desiring to put my blood to sleep
Hairs rising up
In the cut of your abdomen
Praying for sick wishes
Praying for a falling victim
To feast upon the wrists
Where you once hid
Pitch black secrets
Now bandaged in pain
The kill fills you up again
Crawling faster little spyder
I see your cobwebs
Filling my corners
The prince of darkness
Now dethroned
To the smallness of a spyder
Bound to be
blood against my walls

Betrayed

by Souldiergirl

image2

Betrayed

In the worst kind of way

It hurts It stings

It is raw and it bleeds

I would if I could

Cauterize

but the memories claw the wounds open again

like trees hitting the window

In a storm beyond my control

Lies spring eternal

The heartbreak you administered

Is lethal

Oh Doctor Doctor

Tell me what’s the cure…

For this deadly betrayal?

I became the centerfold

For his lies and scandal

Oh Doctor Doctor

Come a little closer

Transform me into more than one can handle

Take these feelings burning my soul

The side effects of betrayals disaster

Burn them into oblivion

And return them to their master