The Voice in my Box

  

For many years 

debilitating thoughts 

made a home in my mind

No room at the inn, door locked 

…confined 

I smiled in silence 

To an oblivious room 

All the while

My throat screaming 

For all the bad memories 

All the unfair nights

All the damn hurt!

the effects 

…and the cause 

Life played out and my lips 

….Obediently paused 

Until 

The drink of belief 

Made her way 

From my mouth to my feet 

Like a waking alien 

I have found my home again 

And all that was shrunken inside 

Lost the urgency to cling and hide 

Rising in hope

Yes this freedom speaks

Oh honey…

This freedom sings!

She flys on flames atop of wings

And the music is sweeter than ever 

My voice, my speakers

Reign out 

Bleeding a glorious color

Onto white corners 

of my 

…Newly born feathers. 

  

 

 




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She breaks down 

He arrives in an instant 

…to her flood of wrenching pain

He knows 

He holds her

His love is ever so gentle

…She is his treasure  

He is the calm in her storm 

He would never leave her 

Even when she pushed and clawed 

He…stayed…right…there

My heart in my throat 

As I sat kitty corner in my chair 

Observing love conquer 

She had crowned his heart 

And I found myself silently weeping 

To be one to witness 

…a tender and true love as this 

And as my tears talked a little louder 

They did not even notice

For they were long sunk 

Into the arms 

…of each other 

  

  

I am your Music Box 

Inspired by Eric and Chrissy, this is a vocal piece. Please click on the link below to hear this piece in my own words ❤️

  
https://audioboom.com/boos/3684252-i-am-your-music-

  
I am your music box…

I am your music box 

And my heart is your ballerina 

Spinning in the direction of your light

Twirling in the presence of your love 

With my arms above my head 

Reaching high for you 

Chin up 

To the sky 

I am your music box 

And you…are the reason why 

My heart is your ballerina 

Dancing to the sunshine of your orchestra 

Do not you know 

I was once in the dark?

But your love has opened 

my soul 

And moved the ballerina 

Inside my heart 

  

Day 2

  
Hello my gorgeous rockstars! Day 2 of 3 days and 3 quotes… Today I am going to pass this challenge on to three other badass bloggers without all the rules, just share some quotes that mean something to you- if you want- no pressure :))

Walkerkaty0                                              Oceanswater                                      gigoid

The quote with Jax Teller below really spoke to me- not sure if it was Kurt or one of the other writers from SOA, but I read it and was like bam! How true it is that when I am broken I do not feel strong- in the midst of hurt I feel sad and weak and tired. Many of my experiences hang like a loose earring to my heart-they are there but too painful to wear completely.  When I do embrace these hurtful memories I can break again-and fast-but it is the comfort of family, friends, strangers-that act as a cushion to my fall.  Their love keeps me strong when I am not. Their love inspires me to continue to believe and not give up.

YOU are a part of that love and cushion, thank you! I know, believe me I do, that life can be super hard. Hard like slamming the pavement and we are down there wondering how on earth we will stand back up-let alone walk again.

When I was little I remember playing with my dolls and dreaming of being a mother one day-oh how simple things seemed.  I never ever imagined I would be wailing over my daughter’s casket, I never imagined I would be rescuing my children from the angry chains of an abusive marriage.  I have no answers, not even the ones I seek-but I do have love, I do still believe I will find my happiness in my heart. I believe, even though my life continues to unravel from how I attempt to plan it, I believe there is light and hope and love in store for me and for all of you too.

And I LOVE YOU ALL! So see, there is some love already in your day today :))

xxxxo -SG

   
 
  

Oh my Ballerina!

  

Your beauty stretches

Wrapping around His earth
The smoke billows strong

Burying  your worth

Your needs drown into silence

When whistles hum louder than words.

Natures strength emerges from,

Her hiding place under the wind…

Lifting you up!

To dance and sing once again

Oh my ballerina!

You are the light between my grief 

  

 

Never let go 



Mile upon mile 
My love piggybacks on a twisting spiral 
An essence through the atmosphere 
Scattering shades from heaven 
Angelic tunes tinted with euphoric blue
Watercoloring your morning horizon
I want you to know where I stand 
No matter the gaps of earthly space 
That climb and stretch in between 
The physical us
May you hear my voice spilling upon you
The truth is I am right there
The flower in your palm
The breeze licking your skin
I have never let go
Since the moment we began