Trickle into Me 

Spinning bottle caps

On everything you forgot
In such a hurry to leave
Now these boxes sit   
like dead company

        Biting my nails    The snail trailing time    

      You didn’t even tell me! …What I did wrong

My heart a bleeding artery      

                    Hanging like the vacant frames nailed into our drywall                                              

Even though the house is gone

Purple circles from no sleep           Are darker than my chestnut eyes 

Eventually I stopped asking           Besides, your ghost never replies

Spinning ballerina in a box            The laborious turn to start again 

Lights slowly seeping in                

The process of a beautiful corpse Growing back her skin

  

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Feathers from Fear

  

You take me…                                       to new heights

You raise me…                                    to tree tops                                 Gazing at … moon drops 
Naming the stars for me 
Calling me…serenity
But soon… do I realize
This necklace is a collar
This collar is your fingers 
Muzzling me to death
Stifling every breath 
I shared my heart with you!
I unlocked my voice                        …and all I went through
Yet you behave just like the rest…
Holding me out from safety 
Teasing to drop me
Freely…into nothing 
Then- pulling me in and asking…
“How are you feeling?”
I shudder to a revealed illusion 
You should wear your                     God granted honor,                          like you wear a suit and tie
….Ironed and tight-                        with head held high 
Do not speak the word “love”
As you simultaneously squish           …my being like a bug
A pest under your foot
You think I will go along with that?
I will rise up!
And have my own back
I fly down this tree
Like a swift kitty cat
Keep your plastic alibis 
Keep my tears that lived in me       and…died in your hands
Keep it all!
I am gone 
Faster…                                                      than you can stand.
  

Starting Now!

 

Love yourself 
Breathe in the fresh air 
You are beautiful!
Follow your instincts
Put your hair however you want 
Stare at the sky
You are breathtaking!
Do not trust a lie
Shoulders back
You are amazing!
Be brave 
Be daring 
Grab your sisters hand 
You are not alone!
Smile 
Do not be down 
You are an authentic genius!
Only one blueprint
Change your shape
Move free
Do not accept anything less
Than the feel fabulous type of love 
Declare your victory
Do not fear 
Fly and conquer
Love yourself 
Be proud 
…Of you!


Split Decisions 

  

Deep down…waits a soldier
When the spirits color is          …darkened by clutter 
There is a whisper of a warrior
Inevitably followed,however,          …by the curdling call of the taker 
The pull from the straps of ankle biters
The devilish temptation to give in
And let the battle win
Two choices heaving…”child decide!”
He chose…to kill himself
So I could live
I will fight our demons 
I will not quit!
He will be my hero
Leading…                                           From afterlives abyss 


Track Marks 

  

All of the noises are drowning out
But you are screaming loud
And this place we are in 
Is the sheep dressed in the devils skin
They want to see the flowers
They want to see the rose filled goblets
We are right in front of thier glasses
We are drowning in the tragic

I planted my heart that grew into a sunbeam
Underneath all the brightness 
They are still shivering in sadness
They never hear the angelic singing
They never hear the church bells beckoning
We are in an abnormal space

We are not the way we were made 

I’m learning everyday
I’m seeing the conditioned ways
They stand frozen in a microwave
They worship plastic forks and silver spoons
I reach for your hand
We kneel on our own
This life knows no reference for home

I melted away 
Maybe you’ll feel me itching your fingers
Maybe you’ll remember when you see the track marks
Their carpets become so dark they don’t see the stains
They turn their back on the reasons they came

We found eachother                      Bravery our minds                                and Jesus our mother


Revolutionary 



Seven steps toward the sun 

Seven inches will reach the end  
Seven seconds..
Is when I let go and run 
Too foreign is the face of the reflection 
The haunt of 
“Is this what I really want”
Screaming like an old song
Or a familiar scent
I want to be like a reed in the water
Broken from robotic commitment 
The yes and no’s of behavior 
The falsetto of mediocre 
Shatter me into the wild 
Carve me out and into a sculpture 
I will break it apart
And sprint even further 
From the table you’ve set for my future
Don’t you see?
I will never live there
Today is already the sleeping tomorrow 
And I am young in the water
What you have predestined 
Is not for me
Don’t you see?
You don’t even know who I am
I am no longer your child 
I am a revolutionary woman
Without a mother 
Without a father