The Voice in my Box


For many years 

debilitating thoughts 

made a home in my mind

No room at the inn, door locked 


I smiled in silence 

To an oblivious room 

All the while

My throat screaming 

For all the bad memories 

All the unfair nights

All the damn hurt!

the effects 

…and the cause 

Life played out and my lips 

….Obediently paused 


The drink of belief 

Made her way 

From my mouth to my feet 

Like a waking alien 

I have found my home again 

And all that was shrunken inside 

Lost the urgency to cling and hide 

Rising in hope

Yes this freedom speaks

Oh honey…

This freedom sings!

She flys on flames atop of wings

And the music is sweeter than ever 

My voice, my speakers

Reign out 

Bleeding a glorious color

Onto white corners 

of my 

…Newly born feathers. 





Once Upon Our Time


My life is a story 

A peeling layer of liquid poetry

As the breadcrumbs 

fall behind me

Each time I grow


Each time you know 

There is more of me to follow 

I’ll be Gretel  

How about it Hansel?

Our words are building a foundation

For the most courageous castle 

One who has seen 

And felt 

Been on her knees 

When all she could do 

…Was crawl 

Now she stands 

With you and me 

Abducting a long forgotten glee

And it doesn’t make sense

But love seldom does 

Once upon our time 

Breadcrumbs and fairytale rust 

Take my story 

Not just to read 

…Yours, to be touched. 




She breaks down 

He arrives in an instant 

…to her flood of wrenching pain

He knows 

He holds her

His love is ever so gentle

…She is his treasure  

He is the calm in her storm 

He would never leave her 

Even when she pushed and clawed 


My heart in my throat 

As I sat kitty corner in my chair 

Observing love conquer 

She had crowned his heart 

And I found myself silently weeping 

To be one to witness 

…a tender and true love as this 

And as my tears talked a little louder 

They did not even notice

For they were long sunk 

Into the arms 

…of each other 






I look as I walk by 

You smile back

Walking ahead 

As our souls scream out 

Frantically reaching hands 

The same eternal longing 


…five thousand lifetimes 

Pulling at us 

To please

…give in 

How deep is this ocean of feeling 

we have set our hearts in 

Yet here we are 

…Pacing the shore again 

Pretending with nods and smiles 

While inside 

The thunderstorm of connection 

has knocked all the power out 

Maybe no one would notice 

…if I reach for you in the dark 



Thank You

Please read this deeply touching piece by our sunshine girl, Jessica. Love you 💜

Send Sunshine

rescue_cThere is a deep appreciation that I have not acknowledged, a personal moment that I will remember for the rest of my life. Where a person’s compassion was not afraid to speak in a moment when they could have remained silent. This gratitude I wish to extend to a stranger’s voice that reached me in my raw grief.

Sincerely, Deeply, Thank You.

Several years ago, I cried a daughter’s tears. I wept a deep anguish in the back of a bathroom stall. Hidden to the world, I refused to be seen, yet my silence could not be contained. In the acceptance of a sentence that was soon to occur, I bawled. Ugly, unforgiving sobs, cowering in the face of my future.

In the middle of my pain, not recognizing there was another person in the world, a voice drifted to me. A real individual whose face I would never see…

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Ain’t no Sunshine…

  Today my smile 

Was held in place 

By the frame of a mental corset 

Begging to come undone 

Working without thinking 

For my mind was off twisting 

In memories reoccurring 

And oh when I finally came home!

Ripping the corset 

Like a dog uncovering old bones 

The remains of a smile 

Broken in a twirling puddle 

This is how mama misses 

…her baby girl 

Eight years ago this week I lost my sunshine. I miss her so much. ❤️


Going Home

Love this piece. I am going home too xxx



I love you and I don’t know why

With all this grief

My heart keeps tight

…a sliver of light

And I think…

If I keep this slender sliver on repeat

…I will be alright

I love you and I don’t know why

I remember when you first

walked down the street

into my soul

I remember it all

The warm sliver of a ray of hope

I love you and I don’t know why

…all you needed was a sliver to get inside

To be, to watch, to pray 

I think if I keep this slender sliver on replay

maybe, just maybe

…I will be ok


*thank you for helping me through this hard time- love you all* 


Our Place 


 Running through the tall weeds

Of all we have been through

How it has grown taller than us

Hand in hand, we escape 

To remember when

Time was not an enemy 

…but a friend 

Like you 

Like me

Come lay under the stars 

Baring all of our scars 

To the eyes we trust 

We are safe here 

In our land 

…of magic and love