My grief is knotted up in my stomach…
Pressing and swelling
Kicking and burning
Constantly reminding
My grief is tangled in my head
Aching and spinning
Pretending you are not dead
Constantly pounding
My grief is sticking in my throat
Memories will never go
Tears that burn to be known
Regurgitating and swallowing
Constantly haunting
My grief is in my eyes
Swollen and lifeless
Closed with no brightness
Constantly clouding
My grief is in my entire being
Sore and exhausted
Empty and devastated
Constantly reaching
My grief is black and blue
Bruised and broken without you
My grief is red and dark
Life is dull with no sparks
My grief is white
A colorless life
Limping toward tomorrow
Thinking maybe you will be there
Or I will be
There
My grief is a sea of seven stages
Constantly flowing
Where little angel hearts beat, in sync, feel it does, down deep
Alive, forever does, she may sleep, in loves bosoms hold.
Listen to the pitter patter of running feet, jumping into arms of mommas joy and sweet
🙏💛
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You’re making me cry… That was so beautiful. Thank you Antony. Thank you so much.
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Damn, sorry. Didn’t mean for that. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts 💛
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The good kind of tears
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🙏💛
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Souldiergirl, these words (although sorrowful).are beautiful. You have wrote from the heart, capturing the grief.
Hugs xx
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Thank you so much 💙
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Gosh, I am welling up a bit. I am going to read this again this evening, glass of wine in hand and something suitably emotive on the stereo to get the full effect. Bravo, Souldiergirl.
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Wow now I think I will join you PG. How about that- PG and SG- glass of wine and some poetry. Thank you beautiful love :))
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I cannot think of a finer way to while away a Friday evening! I shall raise a glass to you and your talent this evening, SG! Much love gorgeous lady x
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And I will raise one to you beautiful sweet!!
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just beautiful – “Tears shed for another person are not a sign of weakness. They are a sign of a pure heart.”
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That is so beautiful Mihran- please know what you’ve said has deeply comforted me-thank you.
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So true, and until you can fully and completely, experience your heartaches, you will NEVER heal back up!
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Thanks for these words, I too have held my grief in me and given it a voice to speak and worked with it to find healing…Thank you for this
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You are so welcome. Thank you for sharing with me. Giving it a voice is so healing isn’t it- it still hurts but it helps to get it out. I’ve given it many voices ❤️
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Thank you 💙
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Oh I have no words to do this justice! You are a talented writer!!
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Aw thank you Jennifer! Really I just scribble down what burning my soul, it’s so healing. You are a talented writer. I love that we’ve connected. Xxxo
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You are lovely! Thank you so much, that means a lot coming from a writer like you!! 😘🌺 so happy we have connected too!!
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:)) 💙💙
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Enduring the Trials of the Hardships that Life Has to Offer…
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Thank you for sharing this my friend.
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You’re more than welcome!
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💗
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Well you did it again, I’m breatheless such an amazing poem. And I can really relate at the moment. Thankyou soul sister that really is heart touching for me today ☺
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Thank you Rich! You are a soul close to mine. Thank you for sharing with me. I am sorry you can relate-but I am comforted knowing you have been touched. 💙
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😉😉😉
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☺️💖💖💖
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Sending hugs!
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Thank you! I love hugs :))
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I like it….wonderful ….love greeting Lis
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Thank you Lis. Love to you beautiful!
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This is absolutely brilliantly emotive poetry. I don’t know if there’s a personal experience behind it, but if yes, sending you healing. Wonderful writing, Souldiergirl! And God bless!
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Yes very personal- it’s how my grief feels. Thank you so much for your kind words- they and you mean a lot to me💙💙
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Hang in there and don’t lose faith in the man upstairs
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Thank you Kunal. I so appreciate your encouragement. I’m still holding on and looking up :))
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Heartbreakingly honest.
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Thank you Callum
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It is a cloak we will wear as we walk my love, but I will tell you the weave changes with time and the colors become brilliant again. Precious memories indeed. Beautiful words, SG. I often think how incredibly impactful his seven precious days were in the making of Rita. Seven days that changed me forever❤️.
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Oh Rita. Seven days for you and seven months for me- how we are connected and now our angels are too. I love you. Thank you for comforting me so much. I so appreciate you.
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I love you too darling so very much. We will get through this one step at a time.
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living with pain anxiety and depression
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Yes- living with and living without
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everyone does whether they realise or not. but you really dont write much about your angst.
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Good morning John.
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gm too damn hot today. will be glad to see joan. i would ask her to pray for you but one letter wont cut it.
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No worries- thanks for the thought
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of course there are and it is not all good. we are making no progress nor connections. shame
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That’s too bad 😦
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i disagree
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Beautiful tribute. We honor those we love with our grieving when they are gone. My thoughts are with you, and all those experiencing profound loss.
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That is so Tammy- thank you so much.
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This is greatly sad, but the elephants are nice.
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Thank you Professor- they are so sweet aren’t they :))
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Our Angels know our hearts, dear SG. We honour them with our grieving but also with our tentative rays of hope and even happiness. Sending you much love and hugs from another Mumma with angels. ❤
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Oh Karin- you have touched me so much today. I love you soul sister. I love our babies. Thank you for being honest and sharing- you are such a deep beauty to me and to so many.
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I done it again. https://wafflemethis.wordpress.com/2015/08/28/let-me-entertain-you/ my sweet soul sister☺
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Ohh! Rich- are you trying to make me cry? Happy tears… Going to check now.
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Thank you so much for your words that have touched my soul. ❤️
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There is no time table on grief. I hope that you are blessed with peace from the wonderful memories of your angel.
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Thank you Syl. Faithfully kind and loving
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You’re welcome! In my prayers, Sg..
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I’m hugging you from here to take away some pain. x love to you and trust me I know when death hits, there is no relief, no healing that can cure the loss of a child or a parent or a soul mate. x
Chrissy
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Miss you girl. Love you DG xxx
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❌⭕️⭕️⭕️⭕️
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I love you Sisterheart. I just hope you know how much your story has impacted me…and how very much I wish you peace. Fight on, Shieldmaiden.
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I really do believe that. You have stayed true to me since we first connected and have impacted deeply. Thank you isn’t enough- but it’s a start :)) ❤️
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😥 hugs for you
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Thank you my sweet Quirky💙
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Even in grief you have hope. I know very little, but I know that the life and the universe are infinite. Our grief will die with us. Our hope will live after we cross the veil. I hope you have a reunion you are wishing for.
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I believe I will- and I am going to believe myself right into that reunion. I have many special people on the other side. Somedays I just break down missing them but I do believe in that veil-thank you so much for your words Inese and thank you for your faithful presence here.
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Good to know somebody is waiting for your there. I too have some special people waiting for me, and I know that the life never ends.
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Oh you have such a sweet soul. I believe that too Inese
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❤
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grief is poisonous do NOT keep it in your heart to kill you slowly. Share it and get rid of it. Life is beautiful gift of God, cherish it,
peace and love ❤
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Thank you Tanveer ❤️
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Your post holds the power of revealing the depths of grief. Grief which cannot be hidden or glossed over. Grief which remains the vehicle for life’s continuity….
Did the question, “Why me?” ever haunt you? Did you then gain the wisdom to ask, “Why not me?”
Shakti
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Thank you Shakti. Yes I have asked myself those questions and many more. I am accepting my grief so that I may live a happy life. I don’t think I will ever have the answers I seek- not in this lifetime anyway 😉 thank you so much for sharing and being here.
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Powerful and heartfelt words that put the feeling of grief out there for all to feel. I pray for your healing and restoration and that you will see your beautiful child sitting happily with God. May He pour out His blessings upon you, my sweet sister!
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Oh thank you angel. I pray for those things too and He has given me visions of her- so I know she is ok. I just miss her so much! And the way she passed was so awful it’s been hard for me to move on from that moment. Then this past year my brother unexpectedly passed away- only 38. He was such a wonderful man and I miss him so much. I love you angel- thank you for listening to my words and encouraging me. What a gift you are. ❤️❤️
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Awe… You are so sweet and precious. I praise God for giving you visions of your “Little Poem up in Heaven”. I pray for healing for you. I don’t know what happened but feel that she did not suffer. God has her in His Hands.
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to have some sort of word or feeling that she didn’t suffer is what I’ve been praying these past seven years for. You are such a special soul and angel to me. Thank you for sharing that with me. You have reached the deep place of my heat- ❤️
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Awe… Praise God! He knows what you needed to hear. All that I know is what I felt. He has your little girl… and He loves you very much and does not want you to suffer. God bless you, my sweet sister!
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Thank you so much angel! 💗
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Beautiful words as always added to your magazine here as well http://flip.it/cT3WO
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Thank you Ian-I wanted to ask you if I may add a link to my magazine on the side of my blog or somewhere? I am so touched by what you have done :)) xo
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Of course you can l would be honoured this is the link you can use l will be adding a link to all the magazines shortly xoxo
http://flip.it/hxBai
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Yay!! Thank you my friend 💙
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Also l just noticed top left is a way to add anything yourself if you would me to add a link for you just leave on a comment here,. Thanks 🌹
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Sure that’d be great! Wow you’re such a treasure Ian- looking to the skies my friend 💙💙
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The unwanted, unexpected storm that can’t be avoided and must be endured in order to see and feel the sunshine again. I’m holding you in my heart and prayers in certainty of the storms final passing and the sun’s return…
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That is so beautiful Pam. I pray that is true- the vision you’ve painted brings me hope 💗
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flowing
red
~
exposing
raw
nerves
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and how the rawness feels every last drop
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Another beautiful poem…
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Thank you so much Robert
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One the of the deepest pieces I have read since blogging. Your pain is so evident throughout. Sad and devastating to read.
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Thank you. Sometimes I just can’t help it- I miss them so much. 💙
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You are wonderful
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And so are you 🙂
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Thanks
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:))
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