I hate being hurt by others. No matter how many times it happens, it still hits like it were the first…
When I give my all and it is not enough
When sadness smokes an insult
I am overlaid in its puff
When a promise is betrayed
I know you let my secret run wild
My soul burns
In a tear kindled fire
My reality…
My heart is not taken seriously
Again pushed into a corner
Just my Savior and me
It’s never easy. Love this!
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It’s not is it. Thank you so much Katy. Love when you are here
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such powerful words and beautiful image!
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Oh thank you so much Mihran!
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Shameful that others can hurt us, and do. Please visit the original to leave a comment.
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Hi Dave. Thank you very much for visiting and sharing. You mean a lot to me- you’re very kind. Thank you.
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I try to be kind, honest and fill the world around me with love and positivity. There’s enough hatred and mistrust in the world today, if we can spread joy then it helps those around us. My world used to be full of doubt, negativity and pain so in order to escape I used to disappear inside me. If I never return to those deep dark recesses it will be too soon.
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Wow Dave-would you ever mind sharing with me how you overcame the darknesss? You are such a kind soul and you share that with so many of us here. Thank you
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I was lucky, and I know how lucky, to have the support network I’ve got. I will share more in a post when I can, possibly this weekend. I have also found a job I love doing but will be moved to a new role at the beginning of September which is giving me anxiety attacks at the moment. The current role has me working as part of a team of 3, the others are on the other side of the country so I work from home as often as possible. That won’t be an option afterwards, the team is quite large and I will have to work from the office. 😫
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It is hared to experience the same hurt over and over. It may hurt as if it was always the first time but because it isn’t it weighs even more. Unitl the moment when it gets to heavy and we have to drop the weight… at least a bit.
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I believe I am at the point. Do you even know how much you help me? Sending hugs and love. 💖👭
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I know how much it means to get the right words at the perfect moment. I am happy that I provided them for you today, dear Souldier Sister. Feel hugged and know that you are loved ❤
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No matter how many times…it still hits like the first….
words that ring true, we need to heal our hearts from that first hurt.
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Yeah- you nailed that. It can be so painful to even revisit that so then it just remains- buried, until it comes up again. Atleast that is what I struggle with. Thank you so much for sharing
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Hurt is a hurt. it hurts same always. it might be physical or emotional.
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Yes, or both. Thank you so much for visiting and sharing
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I just found your blog from a repost on Barclaydave. I am so sorry for your losses. Your soul is carrying such a heavy burden of sadness. I hope the following poem by the Indian poet Rabindranath Tagore will give your heart some healing, one day at a time.
Bless this little heart, this white soul that has won the kiss of heaven for our earth. She loves the light of the sun, She has not learned to despise the dust, and to hanker after gold. Clasp her to your heart and bless her. She has come into this land of a hundred cross- roads. I know not how she chose you from the crowd, came to your door, and grasped your hand to ask her way. She will follow you, laughing and talking, and not a doubt in her heart. Keep her trust, lead her straight and bless her. Lay your hand on her head, and pray that though the waves underneath grow threatening, yet the breath from above may come and fill her sails and waft her to the haven of peace. Forget her not in your hurry, let her come to your heart and bless her.
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Oh my goodness! This is incredibly touching and beautiful. I can’t believe you left that for me- yes it does help and I appreciate your words and sharing so so much. You are a very beautiful soul.
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It’s hard to love without expectations but even when our expectations are frustrated, it is better to love than not love. Better to be left in the corner alone with your Savior than out there hurting others and needing the Savior. To hurt others is human but to love hurtful humans is divine. You write beautiful poems that bring out the mother in me. I want to soothe these wounds.:0) I love your poetry but wish you didn’t have to hurt so much to write it…
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Oh Pam. You have come like an angel to me. Yes I would rather be the one hurting than the one doing the hurting. I have struggled with the idea that it is better to love and have lost then to never have loved. I am sure I do believe that in my depths but with so much loss and hurt I wonder. Mostly I am tired and I really really want to be loved Pam- like a silly little girl I guess.
Thank you so much for being here. You are so special to me. Thank you thank you.
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That’s not silly. All good people want to love and be loved. It’s when we get tricked into giving all of our love to those who want to use rather than love, that tips the balance of right-relationship. Sometimes, we have to pull away from people like that because they are black holes. Those of us who love can’t stop loving them even then but we have to choose to love them from afar, or else we might become like them. I know there is someone out there for you, who will love you in return. My first prayer was for God to send someone to love me and He did. My husband taught me the meaning of unconditional love. My prayer for you is that God will send that same kind of miracle to you.
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No matter how many times it happens, it still hurts like the very first, isn’t it, and, you just have to learn to get beyond the hurt, and keep moving on with your life…
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I am sending you my hugs and care. I could relate to a lot of what you wrote here my friend… the fact that we felt pain, the fact that we get hurt means we are very much alive and truthful to our relationships. We are authentic beings that we feel sadness and pain in times of betrayal. But do they deserve our tears? Do they deserve our time? The person who caused you so much misery does not deserve your tears and your time. Love yourself enough to know when to get up. I do believe you have a beautiful heart, tough and strong. I know you will be able to surpass this trial. please be strong dear friend! Sending you lots of hugs 🙂 and tissue too to dry those tears. Take care dear friend!! It’s their loss not yours. ❤
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After the evening I had, this was such a timely post for me to read this morning. I understand completely. Thank you for sharing and I hope that you’re okay?
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Beautiful words my soul sister but also very sad, I can feel it under my skin “When I give my all and it is not enough. When sadness smokes an insult” I know how it feels it was a time I felt the same… “It will come the moment, that you will stand up strongly and walk out that dark tunnel and face the light, you would be trembling, but you will be stronger, the love you have inside will hold your hand, your beautiful soul will lead your way, your courage will bring you out and the Savior would be there to hold you always”…<3
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Oh Carolina. Thank you. This is so beautiful- and what an image you have for me. I am going to hold it close and feel encouraged. I feel so blessed that I have found you and you are such a real and kind soul. Your sweetness just oozes out and I feel loved. Thank you for being here sister ❤️
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Thank you I am here… always 🙂
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Thats the best thing you can say-my heart cheers
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Still up? Just as me 🙂 I sent you an email
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Yes, late night for me. Okay I will check!
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The hardest part is taking the blow and turning it into a lesson, my love. The hurt lasts as long as we fail to learn the lesson. Fool me once . . .
I love you ❤️
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Today I posted this on my Blog I wrote it for you! ❤
http://yesterdayafter.com/2015/07/15/the-walk/
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Oh honey! This made me cry. I can’t believe you did this for me?…you are so precious and truly authentic. It’s been a rough few days and then you shine in like a beautiful hope and hug. I can’t tell you how much this means to me Carolina. You make a difference- you soothe my spirit. Love you precious soul sister. ❤️
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Oh I am very happy that I can make some difference in your life. It means a lot to me too …feel always my hug and love…. ❤
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I do! I loooove your hugs :))
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Betrayal is quite possibly the most bitter of all injustice. I can tell, that someone like you, takes a long time to build up the trust it takes to allow others to see vulnerable parts of you. We always keep the shield up in front because we never expect the blow to come from behind. I’d rather die than give up anything told to me in confidence. When someone tells a secret about themselves they give you a piece of them that is too heavy to carry alone…they want your help to bear that burden. By giving away some of our story that hurts…it helps to lessen the pain, even a little bit. I’m sorry someone has taken something so sacred and trampled it, Sisterheart.
I hope you can be at peace with it soon. Love and Respect, Always.
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I feel your pain. What comforts me now is that the more I am “exposed” by will or against my will- the real me shows. Many have left but the very few who stay I cherish all the more and hold my head high for who I am and who He makes and is making me to be. Incomparable beauty is with those of the Lord who are like gems, even with flaws, and they ie you shine brighter then the noonday it says. For your Savior is shining out from the depth of your heart and soul. Be encouraged for you are strong and priceless.
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Let’s pick ourselves up again; there’s no other way❤️
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Agree, but we need to come out of the situation ourselves…we can’t rely on anybody else for that.
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When someone hurts us deeply, the after effects can be lingering. You keep your head and heart up ❤
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I know this feellng. Hurt never seems to go away. The pain can be lessened for a little while but when it happens again all the pain comes right back. Now it hurts twice as much. I have shut out people as a result of my past hurts. But I found out that the only person who felt that was me. Isolation and loneliness was the result and Its not a good place to be. Thank you again Souldiergirl for another great post. I can so relate to your writings.
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It’s so tough when you just want to be heard, and the other isn’t open. So, so tough. I’ve been going through this recently. Makes me anxious and depressed.
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Hugs
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Thank you Jay! Always need those ;))
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Beautiful!! So much hurt in this world… but we have a Savior who can help us through it all. God bless you, my sister!
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Amen! God bless you angel
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Many, many blessings to you too!! 🙂
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Thank you my angel
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Usually, in many situation, I can still endure the pain. But there are days when it really stabs you badly and that is when you know you cannot take control over your tears. It just flow out and you hate the feeling being defeated by it. But I guess, it is okay to cry from time to time. Just have to learn to let go bit by bit … It will heals eventually. *HUG*
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Oh my Sherrie, yes. You are exactly right. Like the ebbs and flows and highs and lows. Know you are loved here and its a safe place. Thank you so much for sharing with me. Hugs to you too
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Know that you are love too, dear!
We give strength to each other in times when darkness fall – good friends sometimes is a stranger from afar – and with a big heart, yes? 🙂
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Oh gosh I know this feeling! I have to say I’m right here too! It’s been on going in all facets of my life! I’m so ready for it to stop. I need a respite! Just a little break! I’m taking one today here on your blog! I love this! So I’m sending a hug and praying to God for both of us…God we surrender all this too! ❤
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Amen! and urgg!!! I am so sorry to hear you are going through this too. Yes-we need a break, we need good vibes and real love! Maybe thats why we were drawn together at this time-to lift eachother up up up!! Up to the sun sweet sister! You are so lovely and worthy of true friendship and love. Lets keep strong
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Those “others”! 😦 Everybody knows how it feels to be hurt, but some are too selfish… Spend more time with those who care – even if it is not the same sort of relationship their positive vibes will strengthen you anyway. Your Savior cares the most – share your pain with him. He knows everything about you and he will guide you to the right place in your life :). Hugs!!!
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Oh thank you so much for your words! You are so right-it feels much better to be around positive people. Its been a whirlwind lately of unexpected hurts, writing helps and there is so much love and support here-it brings me comfort. Thank you for being part of that comfort, I pray many blessings for you my sweet soul! I so appreciate your words :))
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Hope you have a smile in your eyes most of your days, sweetheart!
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hugs and it is not the greatest feeling to be hurt by others…sending you love and best wishes my friend
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Thank you so much, that means a lot to me-you are a beautiful soul and poetess
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and so are you my friend ❤ ❤
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Thank you! 😊
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as they say whomever they are. it s a bitch. but yes one and one make one often. good luck
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Thanks John
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Nice post know just how this feels always give 100% to people and get hurt not by everyone thank God ❤️
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for me reality was today sunday. at just how alone i am. have a nice day.
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My Sunday just started but I get that feeling too. I really do
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well i got dissed by a so called friend so you know?
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not bad for a monday k! hahahah
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your funny-well whenever I wrote that it was still Sunday! lol
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hmmmmmmmmmm still im sad
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I’m sorry about your friend- doesn’t sound like much of a friend tho. You deserve better.
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i m prickly k.
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I’m sorry 😦
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for what?> aint ya fault your fault is not playin twenty answers you got your life and your kids and your sorrow mebbe later on or tomorrow? lmao!
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Phew, I hear ya. It’s s journey! Beautifully written piece 🙂 glad I stumbled across your blog
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I know you know where to find me – go ahead and try. In the meantime, feel better.
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Thank you Musings. I havent been here as much lately, feel like I have been running and running you know. Thank you for stopping by.
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well, I hope everything rights itself to some degree for you. I am around all the time now as it is summer in my world, so, anytime.
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Thank you. I am finally starting to settle down myself- kinda ;))
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I’m wide awake and sane, sort of
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This is why wise people say that don’t count too much on human beings, they are bound to fail, so keep your secrets to yourself!
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Amen! Thank you for being here
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Your bravery in talking about what’s real and important. I appreciate that.
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Wow- I really appreciate YOU! Thank you so much my sweet feather 💖
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