Ink it out! 

by Souldiergirl

  

Art speaks in limitless ways 

The way dancers flock to an open space 
The way brushstrokes externalize a buried rage 
The way a chef sprinkles rosemary and sage 
The way a writer grips to the connection of a page 
Or a stick
Grounded dirt or sand
I once wrote with my fingernail on the shakiness of my panicked palm
Bathroom stalls and park benches 
Sometimes lipstick and a mirror appear heaven gifted 
When my daughter died I scribbled inside my head 
The litter of leftover thoughts
Still murmur like a distant rattling of mamas mixing pots 
Beyond a perfect line, circle or square 
Is my stream of penmanship 
Combating the woo of normalness
I do my best work under the duress of craziness
I wrote on a notepad in a bathtub in a hotel room
They said my brother was dying 
And I didn’t know what the fuck else to do
Punch a nurse or doctor?
The postman of premortem…
My tips ink it out harder 
Sometimes I dance and scream 
Shredding down the walls of my brain
Griefs found me like a ravaging bloodhound
Inside, all is not safe and sound 
But I smile and wave and nod
I am a mother and a lover 
I am a human spirit 
I share grief with the infinity of others
“Let’s talk and sit around in a circle”
but sometimes I spin out!
My Shape… is nameless
A pale face bound by a galaxy of freckles 
The overlapping and intersecting lines
The willpower of a lioness
There are no instructions for madness!
So I use the benefit of pen and paper
To be understood by myself 
and none other.



 

35 thoughts on “Ink it out! ”

  7. Pen and Paper are both the mightiest weapons and also the most soothing of balms for those times when nothing else seems to help. Keep writing friend. I miss you souldier. You know where to find me.
    XO

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  9. Your use of beautiful powerful words…..there you go Boo Boo!
    Not just a therapy to ink it out, although I don´t have lipstick….yet. I think is therapy for us readers, at least I´m figuring that one out as I read more and more. Great job.

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    1. Well thank you very much! Yes I agree- it’s both therapeutic to write and read it out through others. For example, talking about smashing things with hammers and such- very helpful.

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  13. Sis, I can’t express how much this touched me. I didn’t realize just how much we shared. I loved this, thank you so much for sharing your obviously raw emotions. Your pain was evident in every line, I was crying through the whole of it. Thank you ❤
    Hugging you xx Paris

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    1. Aw Paris! I’m definitely hugging you back. Love you sis. You’re so precious. Maybe that’s why I feel so connected to you- we share more than we know. ❤️❤️ I’m really glad you shared with me- my hearts full. Love you, love you.

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